update time

Its been a while.  I know.  Im sorry.  I have been sort of sick and also very busy.  Still interning and working half time.  That makes me a busy boy.  Plus I had to be down a few days this week to deal with a cold/allergies/sinus, etc.  baah.

So, I went to visit my friends at college a weekend ago.  It was fun.  My friend Erica turned 21, so I went down for her party.  It was nice to visit all of them, hang out, have a good time, etc.  I enjoyed my time there.  And it was nice to get away again from my life at home over the summer and hang out with my friends MY AGE.  So yeah…I also visited a few other people on my 4 day get away.  nice. too many cloves and beer made me sick i think…oh well.

Back home I am chilling a little bit now.  My work hours got cut to just a day and a half a week for the rest of the summer.  My last day will be August 16th.  Im not going to mess with being on a nother schedule for 2 weeks for the end of summer.  I have frankly had it with my employer…and it is just no longer worth my time or energy.  So I am done and moving on.  It has been a mutually good relationship up until now…but i have come to realize that it is just my time to move on.  I deserve bigger and better (not to mention higher paying).

Things at the internship are GREAT.  I am actually able to DO things now.  I had been watching before and learning…but now I am at the point where I can start writing, logging, yadda yadda.  So now my stories are making it to the broadcast TV airwaves mostly on the noon and 5, 530, and 6 shows.  Its been a blast.  I like it.  I am happy and gaining so much experience and clips.  Its dandy.

I plan to work and over night and a weekend sometime before the end of summer.

As for everything else in my life…i have had some down time to relax.  I am going to visit my family as much as I can over the next few weeks before I go back to school.  I am also sleeping and resting as much as I can.  Fall will be busy and no time to sleep, so i might as well enjoy it now.  I have started crest white strips and i am on my entertainment kick with the Red Box movies.  Just $1 gets you a movie for 24hrs!  great.  I love it.

That’s about all for now.  sorry for the delay in updating…more to come soon I hope.

comments!

Update on my life…

So I haven’t written in a while because I have been uber busy, tired, and consumed with a family emergence.

Some of you may know (maybe I mentioned it in a past update) that I went home last weekend.  It was kind of a spontaneous thing…

Well, Friday afternoon, my step dad had a heart attack and had to go to the ER.  I spent the afternoon there and once he was stable, I went on to visit my dad and sibs.

Saturday morning I went to my sis’s gymnastics meet, went to the mall and shopped!  I got a few new shirts and sweater!  yes!

Well…saturday afternoon and evening was spent in the hospital again and then i left for school early Sunday.  My grandparents brought me back.  IT was the first time they have been to campus…it was nice.

BUT, Monday morning I got a call from mom and she said they were airlifting my step dad to another hospital to do emergency triple bypass surgery because he started to have another heart attack and had some pretty bad blockage.

That shook me up and I have been dealing with that recently.  But, the good news is, the surgery went well…and he is recovering nicely.  So far they don’t think there was any damage…which is good.

But, I am stranded here at school 3 hours from home and not really able to support or visit with my family…and that is difficult.  But, things are improving, and I hope the worst is behind us.

Thats all for now…happy early valentine’s day!

I’m not ignoring you…

I have just been really busy with stuff aka getting ready to move back to College.  I had a rather lengthy phone conversation with one of my very best friends from school after I posted my “emotion” blog.  We discussed many things, including our reservations to return to school.  Winter quarter for me last year was a drag, and I am just dreading it this year.  I think I have that seasonal depression disorder thing, because every winter I get sad when all of the plants die and the sun goes away for ever.  But, My phone call helped me out a lot.  It is always great to talk to a friend, especially a good, close one who has lots of advice.  So, thanks…I appreciated it.  It also made me feel a bit better to return to school.  We already set up our Christmas gift exchange of which I am happy about, and there is a Dance or Die next Thursday, which I can barely wait for.

This coming week will be so busy, I don’t know what I am going to do.  I have so many welcome back meetings and such…it is overwhelming.  Classes shouldn’t be too bad, especially on syllabus day (monday).  I decided I am going to move in on Sunday because I don’t need the extra day…and I want to avoid being alone in the empty dorm.  I can move back, unpack, run errands, clean, etc before I go to bed, so I will be fine.  Plus, I will have plenty of opportunities to get stuff done off and on this coming week.  My father is taking me back, which will hopefully help things a little bit.  I will be over saying goodbye to my mom by the time the 3 hour drive is over (i hope).

So, as I had mentioned I have been busy with packing and errands.  I got my hair cut, met my mom for lunch, visited my grandma, went over to my dad’s for dinner last night, etc etc.  Today is a day of heavy duty packing.  I will have most of it done today.  I need to get in gear however.  It is already 11am and I haven’t showered, so I need to step on it.

So, as I close break, leave home, and return to school, keep me in your thoughts and wish me the best.  I will be fine once I get back there and adjusted…I just hate the transition.  Also, don’t expect an update for a few days at least.  I will be uber busy…and time will be hard to come by when I get back to college.  I will post when I can.

D

Emotion

So I wasn’t going to update today.  Primarily because I was not in the mood to do it and I was lazy.  I had a good day overall**.  I went bowling with the parents this afternoon.  Mom fixed a wonderful home cooked meal for New Years.  It was delicious and fab.  Additionally, we again had family game night and it was enjoyable.  I helped mom do some stuff today, and I got a few small things done as well.

**However, as the day progressed, I progressively felt more and more sad, lonely, depressed, anxious.  This is because the fact that I only have 4 more days at home hit me.  I will be going back to school on Saturday or Sunday.  I haven’t decided yet…and I am not sure when I will.  I am in no mood to think about it now.  If I move back on Sun, I have more time to get ready, pack, and more time to spend at home.  I think I will be able to unpack in one day and prepare for classes.  However, if I move back on Saturday, I may spend the evening alone, quiet, depressed, etc in the empty dorms on a barren campus.  I don’t want to make the somber occasion of leaving home and more difficult.

Going to school this fall was so exciting.  I was ready for it.  I was excited for it.  I WANTED to go back.  I have none of those feelings for this winter quarter.  In fact, I have quite the opposite feelings.  I am sad, depressed, dreading it, and already homesick before I even leave.  It has something to do with some bad experiences last quarter, the VERY long break and time at home, and also the depressing nature of Winter itself.  I have a single dorm room, of which I mostly enjoy.  However, it gets extremely lonely and depressing sometimes.  The white walls are so close, it is so dull and boring.  It makes me crazy and depressed sometimes.  I like the freedom of my own room, but I miss living with another being.  It was exciting to have visitors last year…and to be social.  I miss that.  Moreover, I don’t have any friends in my dorm complex…and I resent that greatly…as I am sure it would help.  So, I just want to make sure that when I go back, I have people to hang out with.  I don’t want to be stuck in another night with no plans when all of my friends do their own thing.  I hate that.  I don’t want any conflicts.  No drama, etc.  I want to maintain the current friendships I have as well as meet new people and make new friends.  I want to add to my group.  I feel as though I don’t have enough friends, I am insecure about it, and that is one big thing.

I have become a fuddy duddy again over break, adjusted to my home life, and my life before college.  Break was extremely good to me, home, mom, family, etc was so good, I don’t want to leave it all again.  I am not the adventurous type…at all.  I like to stick to my ways and what I am comfy/happy with.   Returning to school and the unknown freaks me out.  I am a weak person, with low self worth, and I just can’t cope sometimes.

I need help. support.  friends. and love.  I have goals for this quarter.  and I want to get through it without completely crumbling.

I just need to suck it up, face my fear, return to school, and cope.  Hopefully things will work out and be ok.  I know it most likely will be.  But I doubt myself too much.  UGH.  I need to stop.

Basically thats it for now.  I had planed to go to bed much earlier tonight in order to clear my mind, get up early when things are fresh and not 12 pm.  I need to think, ponder, talk to a friend or two…and move on.

Much to do in the next few days.  I have to pack, shop, run errands, laundry, etc.  All of which I dream much.  Wish me luck.

Hopefully some good energy flows my way and I improve soon.  I’ll keep you posted and try to blog again shortly.

New Years

Happy New Years to those of you who celebrate it.

As for myself, I hate new years.  I never have any plans or anything special or fancy to do.  So it is just a huge bummer holiday for me.  I actually don’t understand why we celebrate it at all.   Do we celebrate the end/beginning of each month?  NO!  So why celebrate the year.  In my book, it is just another ridiculous day and stupid holiday thing we celebrate.  I hate it.  Its just another day…and a few numbers change.

Plus, I think it is just an excuse to party.  And believe me, I like to party every once and a while, but I don’t have any friends here at home to party with, so it means I am stuck with the family.  Oh joy.  And, it is also an excuse to drink.  Which, I am not 21 yet, so I cannot due.  And since I am with the parents, there is no hope at getting some on the black market to enjoy.  So, it will be diet caffeine free Coke for me tonight.  woo.

So, that is why I hate the new years.  I do believe is starting anew each year and a time for happy beginnings, endings, and resolutions, but other than that it is particularly pointless.

I was going to post an end of the year recap blog thing, but to be quite honest, I am a little under the weather right now, tired, have a headache, and am in a most irritated mood.  So, guess what blog buddies, that means no end of the year recap for all 4 of your to read.  I have better things to do with my time.  Like watch a horrible movie, be lame, become annoyed, spend my evening pissed off, and eventually go to bed.  at 12:05…while all of you are drunk, high as a kite, and kissing everyone in site.  Enjoy if that is your cup of tea.

The rest of the week I will spend in culmination of my break.  Packing, errands, etc, etc, etc.

Oh, and a closing thought.  I am poor, have no job, and have lots of things to pay for.  Without a job, my future looks bright!

Bahhh…I need some happy pills…or some good drugs…or both!

too many people

So I decided to be motivated today and do some things.  I have a VERY limited time left at home and civilized life with a car and shopping, etc.  I go to school in the boonies next weekend.  I am excited, but will miss home and the advantages it has.  However, I will be so glad to be back at college and be surrounded by my friends again.

So I sized my watch today and got that all taken care of.  I am glad its done.  Check one.  And the lady was very nice, which I appreciated!  I then went on a little drive looking and scoping some things out.  Stopped by work to pick up my pay stub so they didn’t murder me for leaving it there.  Then I headed for the mall.  I took the back way because I wanted to avoid traffic.  It was rainy and gross…and people get crazy when it is like that and lots of accidents occur.  So, I played it safe and stayed out of traffic for the most part.  The mall was absolutely packed.  I drove all the way there, so I kinda wanted to take advantage of it, but there were so many people (who were RUDE and ignorant) so I just decided to get in and get out.  I had to park 03924902384 miles away and then i fought through the crowd to look at Hollister, Gap, AE and Aero.  Hollister was LAME…nothing new…and kinda busy…so I just left.  Gap was nice.  Didn’t see anything (other than thermal tees – YES!) that tickled my fancy…so I moved on to AERO.  It was a MESSSSSSS!  I couldn’t even walk around.  I wouldn’t have went in if I didn’t have a gift card there.  But I couldn’t really look and everything was a mess, so I just left there too.  I stopped by AE and got my sweater vest (yes!) and waited 15 mins in line to pay for it.  REDIC!  Then I figured I deserved Starbucks for all of that…so I got a venti Carmel Frap – no whip to go.  I enjoyed it on my drive home, which I took the back roads again – but a different way.  I got home, helped mom with her digi picture frame.  We ate dinner, ran to wal mart real quick – And the creepies were out!  Came back home and we all watched EVAN ALMIGHTY as a family.  It was a cute/nice little bonding time.  And the movie wasn’t too bad.  I worked on loading all of my pictures to MY digi picture frame during the movie.  I am catching up on blogs (and blogging here), and facebook for now.  Prolly gonna meet up with some ppl later…after all it is a friday.  Oh how I would love to be at school right now.  Probably be a lot more fun than right now, but I am enjoying home.

This weekend we will be doing a few more family things.  I am still working on New Year’s plans.  I have a HUGE to do list that must be done before next friday/saturday when I move back.  Packing, shopping, errands, etc etc etc.  I have to visit some ppl and get some little tasks completed (hopefully this weekend if things work right).  And then I will celebrate 2008 by packing and getting shit ready for school!  woo!

peace until later (probably tomorrow)

D

The betch is back…

So I am back from Christmas festivities and my dad’s house.  It was a pretty good time.  On Christmas morning I was at my moms house.  We opened gifts ate breakfast, cleaned up, etc, etc etc.  There weren’t many surprises…as well all knew what we were getting.  I was with my mom when she bought all of my presents so it was a real shocker.  lol.  Some of use also got our gifts before xmas…like me and my phone.  However, I got what I wanted, so all was well.  I drove to my dads around 2 and opened my gifts there.  My brother and sister are both young, so we still believe in santa. cute!  So I got ink cartridges there, a few lotto tickets and some money.  I also got a watch…the exact one that I wanted.  However, I only looked online for it and the pics made it seem fab online…however, I know have decided that I dont care for it at much.  More to come on this later.  It has become a debacle. I played with the dog and looked at the kids’ gifts before we headed over to my gpas for xmas day dinner and more gifts.  It was nice to be there…I got to visit both of my uncles and one of their wives.  It is great to see them…they are a lot of fun and make getting together fun.  We opened gifts and then had dinner and snacks and such.   I got some money, gift cards, a hoodie, and cologne.  Woo!

Wednesday was spent sleeping WAYYY in and watching the kids and the dog.  it was actually enjoyable.  I spent the whole day playing with their new toys, games and movies.  They were good for me, and it was nice to spend some quality time with them.  I will be posting pics of my xmas on facebook later.  I spent the whole day there and then came back home late last night.  I had a severe headache, but decided to put away Christmas stuff anyways.   Then I watched the realworld and figured out what i am going to do with my cash.

I put a BUNCH in savings, and then i am going to spend the rest on a few items I would like:

-Digital Photo Frame

-Sweater Vest from American Eagle

-some other misc. Items

-and…and upgrade to my watch…which i thought i like…but I don’t.

Not having a receipt and dealing with Kohls on returns is the devil.  Plus, they don’t have the watch I want…so I am going to the store again tonight to look at some more and hopefully find one and just get it.

I haven’t had a watch since before thanksgiving, and I am in desperate need of getting one, getting it sized correctly, and doing all of that before I leave for school again next sat or sunday.  I haven’t decided which day i am moving back in.  Time will tell.

So, now it is your turn.  I have three questions for you!!!

1) How was your christmas?  What did you get?

2) When are you moving back to school?  Sat or Sun?

3) and…if you have any stories or advice for returning things…oh joy

Until tomorrow…

D

creeper alert

Today was a day filled with traveling and visiting family. I spend most of the day at my father’s house, which was actually quite enjoyable. Then for dinner, we went to my step-mom’s extended family’s xmas get together. It was nice. I went for the food and to visit with my father and our close sector of that particular family. it was nice until after we got done eating and things got awkward. I don’t really know that family well…so for me to visit with them is almost unbearably difficult. They don’t know me well…and I know them even less. So it was interesting to say the least…but it didn’t last long.

I then left for my home and on the way home I ran into some snow covered roads and lots of wind. Apparently the PT Cruiser 384792834790 cars in front of me decided it was absolutely to drive between 10 and 25MPH on a highway rated for 55MPH. UGH. The roads weren’t even bad. So, I was pissed off. Then when I came home and was greeted by my mother, I became more infuriated. Something about her and then holidays makes her became crabby…and make me not get along with her very much. It is a shame…and i feel bad for being so pissed off at her, but I just can’t help having a snotty attitude towards her. I just wished she actually listened to me and what I said so I wouldn’t have to explain myself to her 345 times and then i wish she would loose the tude. I would do the same if she were willing to act a little nicer. This is the problem with break and holidays. Too much time at home with nothing to do and being surrounded by one another 24/7. Its bad.

BUT BUT BUT…getting to my CREEPER story…

I got home tonight and logged onto my computer and checked my e-mail. I got a message from good ole Facebook (which I loving refer to as stalker book). It seems that one of my mother’s friend’s husband requested my friendship. I find it awkward and weird that anyone over the age of 30 would have a facebook. This is just one of the reasons I do not like facebook opening up to ppl with out a .edu address. I didn’t have a facebook when I was in HS, so all of these stupid teenie boppers from HS who add me as a friend on facebook piss me off and shouldn’t be allowed in my opinion. It would also prevent the current situation I am in right now. I mean with the apps and no restrictions, facebook is becoming myspace and I don’t like it . So…back to my story and stepping off of my soap box. I find that I get this friend request from a man I see MAYBE once or twice a year. And, I don’t know why he would want to add me as a friend on facebook. So, I also got a message from him (which was more of a happy holiday greeting), but still. So, I checked his profile and it contained the following information:

-Birth Date

-E-mail Address

-Company

-College info.

Thats it. no pic and nothing else. no friends either. so I am hoping that he didn’t create an account with the sole intention of adding me a friend on there. CREEPY. So, I decided to be civil, yet cautious. I added him as a friend with the caveat that he could only see a limited profile…which I stripped down to basically nothing. Work info, college info, and basics. Thats it. I dont know that I want this man looking at my quotes, pics, wall posts, etc. I mean he wouldn’t get it I know, and would probably take offense to some of it, which my college ppl don’t have a problem at all. And, my luck, it would get back to my mother…ahhh! Not to mention I don’t want him looking through my photo archives and seeing my drunken antic pics. jeesh.

So…thats that. But I am still kinds shocked and creeped out by it. ick!

Of course I mention this to my mother and she says “I told you not to post anything on the internet that would get you in trouble” Anyone can see it blah blah blah blah. Appearently she doesn’t get the security settings that I don’t let just anyone view my profile. And besides, there isn’t much on there that would get me into REAL trouble…minus some pictures. But, next year that will be all ok.

I mean I understand the internet can be a creepy place. And I don’t want to ever post anything that would potentially harm myself or others. And, I think i use discretion while posting things. Its just…natural to me. And to adults, the internet is still this strange, mystical thing. It makes me worry about some of the things I have posted previously (and on here, facebook, etc) and in the future. The scariest thing is it never goes away. But, I think it is all ok. But the longer I write this and think about it, the more freaked out I get by it. So, I am going to stop.

So folks, thats my story. Leave your comments, thoughts, etc. Especially on the facebook incident.

And, what do you guys think about the internet and things you post there? I am really interested in hearing what you guys have to say about it. SO please, fire away those comments!

Until later…

D

Jingle Jingle

So today is my family Christmas party…at my house. We are expecting 30 people…give or take. Hopefully it goes well. My mom is all stressed out about it and always makes such a production out of it. That, in turn, pisses us all off because she freaks out the whole day about nothing, then she gets this attitude and EVERYONE ends up pissed off by the end of the day. JOY! I can’t wait…

BUT BUT BUT, I am excited for food, family, lots of home cooked sweets and such. I will probably gain 5pounds today alone. ick. AND, my break workout is failing miserably. I haven’t lost ANY weight…probably just gained more. What can you do? lol. Hopefully winter quarter I will make it to Ping and loose some bear fat. gross.

Sorry I did not blog/video blog last night. I came home from work and did a few things, ate some dinner, caught up on online schtuff and then at 9:00 I got the urge to bake and cook. So, I make sugar cookies (with misc shapes of holiday figures). I made the batter, rolled them out, cut them, baked them, and then iced them after they were done cooling. I also make scotceroo’s. My absolute favorite thing ever. So, I made a double batch (because I could and I am good like that). I am proud of myself for knowing how to do all of that stuff on my own. I will have you know that the rest of the family decided to sleep and NOT help me/partake in the holiday spirit…so I did it myself. (and in case you were wondering – Scotcheroo’s contain about your yearly allotment of calories…could explain why I am so obese).

So, I did dishes, cleaned up, watched the soup and went to bed. No time/energy to experiment with the Vblog. Maybe some other time.

However, the next few days will be busy for me (as I suspect it will for all of you). I will be visiting my Dad tomorrow and then monday and tuesday are packed with events as well. I will try to blog when and if I can. Stay tuned!

D

EDIT:

PS:  annie lennox’s “walking in a winter wonderland” is quite possibly my favorite song of hers.  It is so “eurythmics” and her style.  It makes me laugh…a wee bit.

However, not quite as good as “Sex Crime”.  You tube that shit for a kick ass music video!